Afternoon Thoughts

Two posts in one day, not sure what the reason for this sudden surge of activity is. When I’m feeling certain things I think it’s easier for me to lay them out here, and that way I know it’s available for the whole world to see, and yet few if any people know if this pages existence.

I couldn’t sleep lastnight. I tried going to bed at about 9:30 pm, and laid there until my roommate came in at about 11:15, made a lot of noise, and left again. I fell asleep sometime after that and woke up at 3:45 to go work. While at work, I had very little do to, few possibilities to screw up… the only thing I had to do was check out 3 people from guest rooms, and yet I somehow managed to screw all 3 of them up. It was the same mistake on all 3, and I don’t think a serious mistake (like forgetting to put a receipt in the managers door or something) but I hate making mistakes, and I feel like a failure for screwing up something as easy as this job I have.

The real David feels just as many emotions as anyone else. People that know me know how emotional I can be, which I don’t find to be a good thing most of the time, unfortunately. I’m glad I can feel emotions, but they work so hard at clouding judgment and they accomplish that task SO unbelievably well.  Lately, I’ve been trying to shut out all my emotions toward everything and just work. School, work. I draw my comfort of the time I spend in prayer and reading the Bible. This morning, I spent a long time praying for a bunch of people I know and my family, it was really peaceful and I felt like I accomplished a lot through that time.

But emotions still make things difficult, like keeping you from knowing how to let somebody from an old relationship know you want to be friends, but you don’t know how to be just friends with them, and you know that you shouldn’t spend much time with them until you can figuire that out. For now, I just have to let my focus be school and let my emotions die down, while I seek the Lord’s guidance on how to deal with these things. I’m always trying to seek his will, but it’s difficult so much of the time…. I’m almost late for class, gotta run.

David “emotional” Wright